COMMA

2009-06-02T20:49:00.005+08:00

omfg. cute right this dude!!! :D

i have moved. www.shesthbombzxzx.onsugar.com

but i will leave this blog open for memory sake. haha.

2009-06-01T10:10:00.005+08:00

Im in the mood of changeeeeeeeeeee.

Im still deciding whether to create a livejournal or onsugar.

This blog will be dead and i will be more active on the other webjournal. Perhaps i will blog on blogger when im in the mood or watsoever. Kay,im a very confused person. Rawwwr!

Im having band later! Yayness! I cant wait to play ABBA GOLD!

I want to try to play till my lips swell and becomes red and wet(sounds extremely wrong)

Tommorow is the band leaders interview, Hazryn,girlfriend, is first followed by me.

Nervous? Im not so sure. Im still considering if i should say i want the post.

Got to decide by tonight bah. Grrrrrr! Hope tht whatever decision i make is for the better.

And and and and im going to meet husband after soooooo long! :D :D

We have been 'monday pls come' or 'monday monday'....... and its finally freaking monday!

Cant wait to meet you can! AHHHHHHHH! *runs ard the house*

haha.freak.

:D :D :D
"There's no one that can top top top your smile"

2009-05-25T21:26:00.002+08:00

( This is my boyfriend : Djalil! HENSEM RIGHT?!! )

Life is sick. Thanks to hazryn for lending her ear to hear my ranting on oval.

You know how freaking irritating she can be right? I just dont want to waste my time on immature and despo kids. Haha. Had band just now. The sec 3's had to make some kind of speech. Girlfriend was pretty nervous but she did rocked her speech!

Other people may have nice and 'convincing' speeches but yours was on the spot. and that is more important and more sincere. Dont think too much kay? Love you! :D

kay lazy to blog alr. After Ptm aite? Buhbyezxs!~

2009-05-12T19:19:00.002+08:00

I LOVE THIS GIRLFRIEND OF MINE! :D

YOUR THE BEST BABE

SAAAAAAAAAAAAAYANG MANYMANY!

2009-05-09T21:56:00.004+08:00

apparently someone melts when i smile with the teeth(:
Rawwwr i want to go to school and meet my friends. Not rot at home.

i hope i can catch up with girlfriend soon. hai.

2009-05-06T15:54:00.003+08:00

(i have never thought i would be in love like this)

21stApril2009. A day which will remain embedded in my memory.
2 important person in my life suprised me for my birthday.
Its a long story. Ask me personally, though some of you people already how it happened.
Sweet arent they? I want to thank my bestest girlfriend and babypanda for coming up with the idea and tricking me and everything lah. Its kind of belated. But i swear i will never forget that particular special day. You have done so many things for me. How am i ever going to repay you for my happiness? I hope our friendship will last foreveeeeeeer! :D

& as for you djalil.
im touched. speechless. words cant describe how i felt at point of time.
thanks for the brownies and the box full of yellow hearts.
things may not be going that well for us right now.
we may not talk to each other as often. not meet as often as last time
my feelings for you are still the same. in fact its getting stonger.
dont put me aside. dont turn your back on me. cause i wont do that you.
i will stay strong and put up with this.
for you. and only you.
as for now, im missing you
super badly.

just live it with basyirah. i feel so much better now. after venting out on my blog. girlfriend has lend her listening ear. Thank you love!(: mye is going to be over soon.
last paper is on friday. and i go @#$%^&*( ~
enough blogging chowwwwwwwwww! :D

2009-04-06T17:12:00.006+08:00

im still not over it. im not sad. just dissapointed.im not being biased.but i swear kranji sounded super nice on that day. was it the judges?I guess it just wasnt our day.

i love band.i love the bandies.i lovemy trombone family.i love my sisters in band.

band gives that sense of belonging.band makes u feel so stress-relieved.

band is the best.no.kranji sypmhonic band is the best.

forever and always

I miss you badly. Super badly. No. Ultra badly. Ahhhhh ):

I want tommorow. I want to see you. I want to see ur smile. Listen to ur voice.

Hold ur warm hand.Hug u very tightly this time. I just miss everything about u lah. I havent seen you for 3 days. But it feels like 3 months or even 3 years. It hurts so badly not getting to see you. Hai. ):

My pms-ing mood has finally arrived. Ohh great.

I will be mumbling stupid stuffs and get super moody for nothing.

Gng to work hard for mye this time. Must get back all th grades.

Less eating in class. Pay more attention. Stop daydreaming.

Take my homework and tests seriously. I have so much to catch up.

Pms kindly leave soon alright.Shucks.This post is soo not basyirah.

Special thanks to hazryn,jannah,debbie and farhana for listening to me today.

Especially hazryn(: Im happy that ur happy bbypanda! Mama love you! :D

& Farhana dont sadsad k?Im here(:

2009-03-29T07:27:00.001+08:00

When everybody was having earth's hour. I was sleeping soundly in my bed. Im sorry hor if i abandon you. ): I was dead beat ah, slept from 6.30 to 3am in the morning. I didnt even wake up for a second. DAMN IM GREAT :D or rather im just shagged with my packed schedule for the past 2 weeks! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Syf is now in 5 days time. im nervous for it already, im pretty sure that other ksb bandies are feeling it right now. We can do it k? After all the tremendous effort that we have put in. Especially during camp when we played music and sat awake untill 2am and nobody complained, WE DESERVE THAT GOLD! We wil make a breakthrough! ahaha!(: Life has been pretty awesome cum stressful.Thanks to results i am more determined to do better for mye! :D i will snatch away the beautiful results just to make my parents proud of me!!
Gng for sws concert and outing with trombone and euphy section later. :D:D excited to maxzsx! hopefully hazryn can make it too. i want hyper with her and point middle finger(inside joke) :D
Honestly, im so bored that im blogging now. And doing stupid stuffs like (look at pics below) :

HAHAHAHAHAHAH! :D okay im joking only hor djalil. jangan amek hati!(: i shall clean up the house now before gng out later. im craving for oreo crush and swensens!ahhhhh money money come to me!(: LOVE YOU PEOPLE AND (I) :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

2009-03-21T18:00:00.000+08:00

Band camp was great but was seperated by babypanda ): so sad lah. i feel so lost without my babypanda. hai. but we still love each other ((:Oh nooooooooooooooo! March Holidays are coming to an end! & i didnt even freaking rest for a day! Band took up most of the holiays. *breathes in and out * For band, i shall persevere. Havent touched on the bloddy homeworks. I dont even have the mood to do any of them. Freak. I bet my other classmates have completed most of their homework. Jyeah. I shall work hard after syf to catch up with my studies. Band must get gold! After all the effort and hardwork we deserve a gold like seriously.

have fun turning your head!((:

Today's the 21st. One month since the day of all confessions.
I still remember every single of moment of that day. I have never been this crazy for a man.He is Abdul Djalil. From a irritating,fun,super horny bestfriend in msn to one of the most important person in my life. I have never regretted knowing you. Cause your one of a kind. Its not everyday i stumble upon someone as awesome as you. Seriously. Hazryn knows the best on how crazy was i about you. I have met my dream guy which is you. Yes, you. This feeling will never change and i believe it will last. Thanks for being there for me for the whole of this month, for always making my day, for always making me smile and laugh,for always entertaining my lameness,for everything lah! I cant imagine if i were to lose you. I will most prolly go crazy and not want to live this life anymore. Cause your too precious to me. Never betray me okay? Remember? I dont want anyone anymore. I want you to be the last one. I will never want to lose you. Sayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang papapanda(: must remember babypanda too. I love our last alphabet of our ic number, i love our house colour, i love orea crush and most importantly, iloveyou.

2009-03-18T19:53:00.000+08:00

Quick Review Of Life:

Oral! (: Im lucky that i got a good teacher. Hopefully can score well. *prays hard*

Im off for band camp. 2 day one night only. :D

I need to catch up with some of my friends. Sorry if you feel abandoned.

I cant sleep now. Gosh. Oreo Crush made me smile all of a sudden just now(:

Im happy for my mil wil ah! ((: Teeny weeny ______ (: Goodluck k!

Time really flies. Gosh.

Syf is coming. My one and only syf. Will work hard for the gold!

KSB WILL GET A FREAKING GOLD!

ONE BAND ONE SOUND !

2009-03-14T20:37:00.000+08:00

Remember this baby panda?
Friday the 13th really exist for me this month. Yesterday was a chaos. Rushed from the malay competion at R.I back to kranji sec to perform. Hazryn and me were so exhausted and draineed out after the whole thing. We almost vomitted in the taxi. Headaches and hunger made everything worst. Thank god we managed to last through the whole thing.

I love you ah baby panda(:

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY MY GEMUK LOVEEEEEEEEEEE!(:

Today is shuhada birthday. She is the best madrasah partner and listening ear. My hyper gemuk bitch. i love you sayaaaaaaaaaaaang! Dah 16 dah boleh tengok cerita NC16. Next year aku punyer turn ah. Then we watch together ehk. Despite all the conflicts you are facing now, just stay strong and never lose to him k. He is at lose cause he doesnt know how to treasure you. Masih ader aku beb :D I wish you all the best in your life and may god bless you baby.

i love my egg(:

2009-03-09T19:00:00.000+08:00

Im so dissapointed with the results that i have obtained. Why? I blame it on myself. Lazy, using band as an excuse,overconfident and complacent. Suddenly, i miss god so much. I havent been praying regularly. I have been complaining about how unfair life is but i have never remembered to confide to god. I keep scolding vulgars spatting nonsence when im angry or depressed but i never confided god. I used to back then. No wonder my soul feels lost at times. Im not being pious or anything. But i think its a wake up call for myself. I have been too far from you.

I WILL ALWAYS BE HYPER AND HAPPY! DONT WORRY! (:

Mr horny banana has been very helpful and encouraging these days. These are what he said:

:] says:
get used to karma
:] says:
believe in it
:] says:
BELIEVE IN KARMA
:] says:
and it would bring you joy like it did me
:] says:
whenever you believed in karma, you will start to think more
:] says:
and you would then start to believe in yourself
:] says:
that you could do great things
:] says:
but you just need to work hard
:] says:
ohkay?
:] says:
thats all i have to say

I want to thank to those who have been thr for me,cheering me up and asking if im okay.

Girlfriends, dont be dampened by our results k? Its only commontest. We will work harder next term and get excellent grades for mid-year. We will work together as one(: Girlfriends forever!hahaha sound sooooo corny. I love you two banyak giler okay. Always layan-ing my highing, my obssesions and my everything. You guys are the best human beings in the whole entire universe. From earth to jupiter to venus to pluto. (okay crap =.=) My point is you guys are the best lah. Hazryn is sweeter than candy.(6 more days ah) Halima is cuter than teddy bears.

& Not to forget these people

Jannah the best eating class partner. Sally the bully and woman beater. Anisah the caring one. Dellysda the best best advicer. Amilia the best bandiee and sister.

Debbie Ong and Farhana the best english classmates and listening ear. & manymore

W/o you people i wouldnt be able to survive today. Thank you so much.

I appreciate you guys and for today i give you my dedication in our friendship.

Oh ya, one last person. The one who has always been making my day. Abdul Djalil(:

First time i mention your name on my blog right. I know your going to read this. I really want to thank you for cheering me up after my chemistry results eventhough you were having chem lesson too at that time. Your able to make me laugh and smile widely everyday. I just cant stop mentioning your name everyday. I cant stop worrying if ur okay or have u shitted or watsoever. Hahaha! I cant imagine losing someone like you. I know its pretty early to say these things. I have never thought you were the going to be the one whom i would like sampai giler. I hope this feeling will last. Im loyal mahs! :P We hate the-ends dont we?

OKAY I LOVE ALL OF YOU! AND GOD TOO!

2009-03-05T18:09:00.001+08:00

PARANOID.
Im not attached. Srsly. But i really do like someone. I have never made in public because i wanted to see him in real life first. To make sure that this feeling is true and not just infatuation. I dont know how he feels about me. But one thing for sure,he is everything to me now. I hope this feeling will last. I just hope so. I really like you lah D !

2009-02-28T17:40:00.000+08:00

Omg lah. I have gotten my first birthday present. Damn early right?! Im so lucky!

Thanks to the trombone section for all the yellowpresents especially huiqi and dominic. Im indeed very touched. Next year i buy for you guys okay? Loveeeeeeeeeeee you all!:D

2009-02-26T18:38:00.000+08:00

Awwww , look at my cute alez marshall :D

I love today because Hazryn treat me cheeseburger and mostof her fries and coke.

I love today because me and hazryn had to run thru the rain together

I love today because Halima bought for me milo when i didnt bring my wallet.

I love today because Perry told me to share kinderbeuno with Hazryn

I love today because Shijie,Pundeh gave us chocolair.

I love today because Jannah gave me oreo during lesson when we were hungry.

I love today because i had fun laughing with my two girlfriends the whole day.
Sayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang korang!!!!!

I love every single moment of today and yesterday(:

& i dare not say anything much now.Let nature take its own course.

2009-02-22T19:37:00.000+08:00

Absence makes the heart grow fonder
& I hope i choose the right one.

2009-02-21T15:13:00.000+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday To Dearest Sexy Girlfriend,Hazryn!

im sorry that i am able to celebrate your birthday with you and halima. but i hope you appreciate my effort of planning your birthday early along with my sidekick,halima. i really did miss you and halima during the camp. serious,tak bedek. Hope all your wishes will come true and get to see E alright. May our friendship last long too. Since your older than me, jangan action yer. I wonder if you have finished the 10 lollipops?!(: Love you alot dearest , i swear :D

CAMP

To be honest,i didnt really enjoyed the camp. Had stomach ache on the first day and was super moody on the 2nd day. I want to thank Chan Shui Man,Anisah and Jannah for always being there to accompany me. Especially Jacqueline for always entertaining me with her lame talks. My hongkiee love. I must say that i did bond with 3e. There are a fun of bunch people. Maybe its just me who told myself that i wouldnt enjoy the camp. But i love 3eeee very much. & our instructors too. Though 3e isnt that hyper or loud as 2c. At least they care for each other the girls too(: I love you people very much okay! :D

& i f-missed Hazryn and Halima during the camp. I miss having them laughing at my lame jokes and cheering me up. ): Finally i see guys lo! ((: happy already!

Commontest! In a weeks time. Ahhhhh. Shit lah,havent study anyth yet. Neeeed to chiong alr . Goodluck to everyone and meeeeeeeeeeee! ):

Kepo all you want.

D, im so disappointed in you. okay maybe it isnt your fault because you dont know how i feel towards you. so i cant expect anything from you.but i think i have the right to express my feelings this time. publicly. this is no joke. first you say you want to forget her watever shit. Now you say your just testing her.i ask you if you liked her and now u say no comment.you know how sad am i feeling? its like she is so perfect and you keep going back to her. i dont love my exbf. i tell you lies so that i can cover up on how much i like you. i dont want you to know. i have never blogged abt how i feel abt you. I prefer to tell it to dearest girlfriend. I fear at the fact you will read my blog and our friendship will just fall apart . But this time i wont hide anymore. I dont why now. or im just rushing into things but I will make this straight for you to know. I like you. like alot. th word love is too strong.iGet it? i know you wont feel the same,but i dont care already. im tired of hiding it and denying my feelings.Thats is why everytime you say u will forget her i will get sooooo freaking happy. But you like u to change ur mind dont u? maybe i have no right to say this bcos u never told me u like me or wat-so-ever. I have freaking like you since last December. i thought u were so different. so special. th only one who knows how to make me laugh and cheer me up. the only one who i can talk openly to. im not expecting any relationship between us frm the start. She is still in ur heart right.R is still inside ur heart right. dont deny it. i dont care alr d. think of watever u want to think abt me.hate me after this. i think i have stored my feelings too much. and this is th furthest i can go. my friends has told me to forget you long time ago. im th stubborn one. I will try my best to just forget you. sorry for being a bitch. sorry if im over. but im a human,i need to let out how i feel like when i cant bear to store it anymore.

2009-02-01T18:10:00.000+08:00

Weird. Im blogging when i have tons and tons of homework to complete. The computer addiction has came back, worst still my laptop is on my study table. I guess having your own personal laptop has its disadvantages. Yesterday , was extremely fun. The music exchange was not bad as we get to know where we stand. I must say we are not bad but we have alot more work to do to clinch a gold. Hopefully we could break the pattern of our band achievements. It wont be bronze this time. I pray to god that it will be gold. We can do it. It isnt impossible :D Goodluck to th other performing arts people taking part in syf '09. You guys will do great too! Set aside band, im not performing well in my studies. Failing my maths tests mostly. I dont have much of a problem with other subjects. But maths. My goodness, how freaking difficult amaths can be. Maybe it needs practice which im lacking. Im lazy. Like a big fat pig. Buck up basyirah!! I pray that i can come up with a study plan. My schedule is pretty tight right now & im rarely free. Shucks.
Amaths tuition in april. I can only make it on saturdays when syf is over. Okay done for now.

I have found you. My life is perfect now. Family, girlfs, awesome friends and classmates. <3

circus

2009-01-28T17:36:00.000+08:00

I realised i havent camwhore for quite some time. So yea im blogging on my new personal laptop.(: not showing ah. just too happy and exciteeeeeed. school is tiring these days. i dont know if i could be patient and just go through the rough times. i hope i will. i dont know what im blogging about ah. i love rani,halima,3e'09,atiqah,amirah and many more for making my daaaaaaaaaaaay! :D

i have gotten over it (:

NewYear

2009-01-12T18:29:00.000+08:00

I promise to blog after my midyears. (?) Life has been pretty fucked up these days. Thank god there are my best friends (rani & halima) and other awesome friends around me supporting me along the way. We have been seperated into 3 different classes and i miss them alotlotlotlot):

No more fanatic fours, no more bullying rani and perry in class. No more halima turning ard to see me. No more 2c. But i shall look on the brighter side on life and accept 3e'09. Maybe we havent really warmed up with each other yet so th class isnt as hyper yet. I really hope 4e'10 will be much much better(: so yea, i got the treasurer post which is not that bad. But th thought of asking people ard for money makes me feel like a 'tai long'. Lolssss. Band practice have been pretty tough these days due to the upcoming event, Syf. Im very very proud of my section for improving alot for these past practices. I hope we can get most improved section 09 if thr is any lah. ^^ Perhaps we can attain a gold for this years syf.(?) Maybe. Just maybe. Okay i have done my part in updating my blog. I will post as much as i can and upload more photos. I cant upload any now since my main laptop has crashed damn. All the photos,memories. ): k watever.

Hello 2009 may this year be super duper best okay! :D

I tell myself to let you go. But i cant seem to do so. Irritating lah. Your so perfect lah please! ): Only girlfriends know how i really feel deep deep down insde. Goodbye 'you'. ):

2008-12-25T01:52:00.000+08:00

SHOULD I CLOSE DOWN THIS BLOG OR NOT?!

DAMN! WILL BE BUSY FOR 4 MONTHS OR LESS.(:

i hope i havent lose my photography touch.

2008-12-05T12:16:00.000+08:00

Boo! Im being such a nice soul to update today. I didnt feel like updating yesterday so yea. Its been a week since my genting trip. So if my post are pretty vague, blame my memory aite. Lets start!(:

Day One.
My family and i were supposed to wake up early to fetch my granny. But then in th end we woke quite late, so we were rushing and all. But i arrived on time(: So yea bandies were falling in upstairs with the luggage and all. We had last minute briefing, giving out of passports and yadada. Initially planned to sit in the bus with rani, but to avoid confusion and all i decided that we would just stick to our partners. And my bus partner, huiqi aka crazy slutty junior :P She was very fun and high in the bus. Okay skipskip. Our journey to genting was super long. I kept thinking 'biler nak sampai nih'. Had motion sickness already. The ear pressure as we go up the hill and all. Skipskip. We were the first bus or rather school to arrive. Other school havent arrive sia. Then chers give out lanyard and hotel card and we check into our rooms. Our room was considered big as compared to the other bandies room. Lucky ah beb. But the room freaking stinks. Eat dinner which was err bleaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah then performed for opening ceremony! Super syiok can. Me and my other two juniors to perform our melody. Then whole literally sang the ymca song. Ahhhhhh so memorable. I was nervous giler before that loh. Seeing the crowds response makes me confident to perform you knowknow. Then we slept!

Day Two.
Competition day! To be honest. I WASNT NERVOUS. I didnt really care actually(:
So yea put on our band uni and all. Ah hui super horny loh. Wear fbt and stokins only. Eyyrh mamasan. Okay was super hyper with her. Then we camwhored with our sexy legs and outfits. Hahah. I had to delete the photos in the end. Scared my mum see then she will think im a lesbian. YUCKS. Okay we did tuning. And tadaa we were the first band after the interval. Our gelang sipaku gelang was nice or rather awesome! Green hills fantasy had some hiccups here and there. But we managed to survive the whole song! Okay blah debriefing after that. Ate candyfloss with ah hui and talk to her then sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep! The weather was fucking freezing mans. Tak boleh angkat.

Day Three.
We had our trombone and euphy workshop conducted by a professional. Cheyt. And then i saw a super duper ultra awesome fantastic ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh cute trombonist from another school. 2nd trombonist leh. So cute lah! I just stare at him the whole workshop. Darsy thinks im mad but i dont care. He is CUTE! Ahhh shit. i cant really remember what happened. The teachers stripped off out free time due to some problems. But its okay. One band one sound .
Ohh ya friendship concert! Percussion ensemble was great. I was once again hyper and high with rani. I wonder when will i stop being hyper and all. Then the competition results were released. We were super shock about the results. Never expected it to be released so early. And KSB got........... SILVER! YAY! we improved from bronze. Wanted gold actually but nevermind. We were just 3 percent away frm the gold. Pfft! We will get gold for next year syf!

Day Four.
MOST AWESOMEZXSZXSZXS DAY! Our free day!! So i went galavanting with my new clique.
Rani , amilia , thaqif and luqman. Man they are awesome can. Early morning we went for bowling. My bowling scores are pathetic. hehe(: The atmosphere in the bowling alley was cool. Feels like we are in a club. The bowling alley was deserted before we came in. Suddenly everybdy started to come. Pembawa rezeki lah gituk.Then we went around finding souveneirs. The things down thr are expensive. I just focused my gifts on my little brother. Pampered boy mahs. Then we went to the theme park. Yadadada. Amilia was super funny. We rode the spinner and i was screaming like hell cause i was super scared.Then we had starbucks. Closing ceremony. Sleep and pack up for tmrw

Last day.
Hmmm. i cant remember anything actually so leave it blank ah.
Bye genting and memories!

Okay i will upload the photos next time. :B still editing them!(:

2008-11-19T21:32:00.000+08:00

YO BABY CINTAKU! IM NOT GOING TO BLOG ANYTHING UNTILL I COME BACK FROM GENTING FOR MY BAND COMPETITION OKAY! PROMISE TO MY READERS! A LONG POST ON LOTS OF STUFFS AWAITS YOU!

ON HIATUS : From the 24th-28th November 2008

2008-11-06T23:29:00.001+08:00

Haiyo. So many people ask me to update. But then i dont know what to about. ): Okay bumbum. I have been busy with band. Its like thrice a week and its duration is damn long. Early morning to afternoon. Gosh i get pretty shagged after each and every band practice. But i cant help it, i love band more than myself. Mr Er is getting scarier , i tremble each time he comes fearing that he will scold me or my section. GOSH! Sir Badrul will be leaving for hongkong soon. So i guees there will be more practices without any sirs and we will be on our own. Overseas trip with band is in 2 weeks time. I cant wait for photography shots, got lotsa of ideas in mind already(:

Tomorrow streaming results will be released. Wish me luck :D

I love this shot of my colourfulbands:D

cm tall

2008-10-25T21:41:00.000+08:00

Im finally updating! Yay! Clap for me baby! (: School holidays have welcome me , 2C -ian have bid me farewell. Two years of memories with this hyper and beautiful class of mine. No matter how noisy, irritating, egoist my classmates are, i cant seem to bring myself to hate and want to burn them alive. I will definitely miss you people alright. My fanatic four especially, you guys have always made class interesting and keep me awake. Our lame jokes , our horny and dirty talks , bullying each other especiall perry and rani. Shazlin sarcastic and outspoken character is totally awesomexzs. She bully rani alot one. Th

en i will actionaction get angry,turn around then show that 'oie my gf leh' face. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh. Beating perry and bitching with him is super fun! Those memories. Not to forget my class partner fairuz last year. Always teaching me mathematics. I can seem to concentrate in hello kitty'class. BORING. :D Now we are officially seperated. I guess im no longer a 2c-ian , ex 2c-ian. But i will never forget the ups and downs 2c had. I love you people. Okay i will display the photos on the last day of school!.i I didnt manage to take picture with that many people as they were busy springcleaning and too shy. I look weird in most photos maybe cause im becoming fatter. Okay burns those fats and carbos basyirah! (: Band practices are boring cause we cant make too much noise due to the o-level examinations. Hais. I hope i will have the strength to play very loud on my trombone for our international competition. Genting here i come! But then i am not that eager to go on this trip. My brother has expressed his feelings that he will miss me & i will miss his birthday. Shucks, i will be getting a big big birthday present for him. Only brother and sibling leh. Must sayangsayang. Okay i think i have posted MORE THAN ENOUGH. Good already since im always lazy to update.

Hotstuff :D

Random Shazzy

Our very own guitarist , James Tan(:

Ripping of Class Decorations

Beautiful Project Work

Project Work

Lelong lelong. Buy Taf from Farah Diana!

Friendly Amirah!(:

Jayne,snow white

Hafizah(:

My pundeh love :D He very cute one

Conan, hottie in class(:

Threesome

Random moments with girlfriends

With the most kecoh guys in class

Ahli mensyuarat lantai

Shazzy again . Hot big girl(:

Goodbye my twin(:

my babies ): love you all.

dont ask me why wanyi face like that

Atiqahw! I love her many!

Kecik! Cute right he.(:

Zaman gemilang

Basketball court near the school. Lol lol

My lunch, My cupnoodle.

Pretty

Prettier

Btw i will top-up my prepaid soon. I will start msg-ing you guys again. Later i scared you alll die. Miss me too much! Lol prasan. Bye! :D

EXAMS ARE OVER! :D

2008-10-11T15:11:00.000+08:00

I really want to talk abt my burger king trip back then. but then now i have to chow. nabei ):

but watever. exams sucked big time. im reading a 561 page storybook titled caleshmara. the fonts damn small, i swear! hahaha

ok most likely im going jalan raya with sec2 higher malay students. yay!(: then then im dreading for results. cause i know my maths sucked so much. too stress , i guess i overworked myself. hais. nevermind thew more i think about it the more depressed i get. band genting trip coming soon! so yea watever. im lazy to blog. next time i become more rajin ok. bye :D

mum and dad i love you

2008-09-15T22:49:00.000+08:00

Im such a jerk. I dissapointed mum and dad again after 2 years. And i still have the guts to dissapoint them when exams are around the corner. Those words that mummy spatted at me keeps running through my mind. In school, during lessons,i kept thinking of how mummy would feel when i get lotsa a1 in my report slip. How am i going to succeed if i dont start working. I have 2 more weeks. And these 2 weeks will determine what my future holds for me. i want to make mum and dad proud. like how i did during the release of psle results. dad with his cane and he was sick at that point of time with mum sitting faithfully beside him. when i came running to them clenching my result slip. hugging dad and he started to cry. mum cried too. she didnt except me to get those results. and even get to kranji sec. ): i want those moments again. all i bring back to them are shitty average marks. i hunger for success, i thirst for those a1s and a2s again. i have decided to go on hiatus. i need to focus on my studies now before its too late.

Ibu ayah,
Kakak janji, kakak takkan buat lagi. Kakak tahu akak berdosa. Akak kecewakan ibu dan ayah. Akak degil and selalu ingat akak ni betul. Akak tidak sedar yang akak sebenarnya salah. Akak akan berubah. Akak janji. Akak sayang ibu dan ayah. Ibu dan ayah segalanya bagi akak. Akak tahu ibu dan ayah marah dan pukul akak kerana ibu dan ayah sayangkan kakak. Ibu , maafkan kakak. Kakak selalu remukkan hati ibu. Ibu tak nak lihat akak hanyut ke arus kejahilan. Ibu akak sayang benar dengan ibu. Akak selalu menjawab ibu. Ibu sabar. Akak yang melampau. Ini salah akak. Akak akan belajar dengan rajin ye ibu. Akak akan buat ibu bangga dengan diri akak. Akak akan mengenggam keputusan yang sungguh cemerlang. Itu janji akak. Akak tak akan hampakan ibu. Akak akan masuk ke maktab rendah dan belajar sehingga ke menara gading. Akak akan hantar ibu ayah pergi haji. Akak akan jaga ibu ayah dan adik. Ini janji akak , kakak akan kotakan janji ini ibu ayah. Kakak sayang ibu ayah adik. ):

Enough emo-ing. Im getting my butts off here. and study. Will be back after my eoy papers. Bye.

supersuperman :D

2008-09-06T17:42:00.000+08:00

IM HUNGRY AND TIREDD D:

BAND BAND DURING FASTING POWER MAUTZSX

GENTING TRIP COMING UP

SO IS EYE. SHOULD I GO ON HIATUS?

WATEVER IM WRITING THIS JUST TO KEEP MY BLOG ALIVE!(:

hello mister(:

2008-09-04T00:53:00.000+08:00

The picture above was take during mass lecture(:

SELAMAT BERPUASE MANZXS.

I WILL POST SOMETHING INTRESTING SOON(:

SUPERSUPERMAN♥ 290808

Teachers Day

2008-08-31T07:07:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA!

SEE I CHANGE MY BLOGSKIN AGAIN! WOO. LETS SEE HOW LONG CAN I SATY WITH THIS BLOGSKIN ALRIGHT!

Okay merepek!(: Its like currently 7.04 am and im awake. Actually i have been awake since 4.30 am. I slept like a pig from yesterday. After the bilingual thingy i sleep dream peee untill 4.30am. No waking up at all leh! Fuyoohh.

HAHA. sorry today extra hypeer. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :D

Since many people have again complained about me not updating i shalzxs update alright. Ok lets talk about teachers day! woooo! (: Went to school as per normal. Met up with rani walked to the canteen, watch her cut the laminated teachers day card while drinking milo. Then go back parade square and i saw 2C girls all except wanyi and kpdt, were wearing our class tee . The guys werent with the exception of albin. See lah if boys also wear more united luh. Sad sad ) *CRYS* HAHA. sorry sorry too hyper. Back to the story ,flag raising! *majulah singapuraaa!*

Nothing much happened in the first part. Our class didnt take part in the captain's ball interclass competition. So the class which didnt participate could do anything they want. So me, rani and halima went off finding teachers to give our presents. Halima only gave ms thng , a teachers day present. Haha she dont want waste money. We found ms thng at first cause she was the first teacher we saw the first thing in the morning. Then we met up with ms fazlin and ms low low low(apple bottom jeans,boots with the fur) , then our adorablee ms tang, then mr foo. Ok then i forget who already. Later we had to go to the hall to watch performance put up by our kranjians! First perfomance was by the 2G guys. I and rani thought the singer going to be sumbang but we thought wrong. He can actually sing . Good job guys!:D Second performance was 2 chinese girls singing chinese song. THAT PERFORMANCE WAS TOTALYY ZZZZZ, BORING! No offence. Third perfomance was a dance performed by 3e/f girls then KPDT . Awesome perfomance! Seriously its one of the best that you guys have put up! I kept disturbing farah and shazlin in the skit! Farah,delly and shazzie acted super duper well! Made me laughed alot.

Then basyirah started to high already! I cant stop cheering,screaming and all sorts of thing. After that was the street dance group! Sexaay performance~ Lastly was the alumni performance! WOOOO

Faizal the singer,singing is super hot i tell you. Nice! Rani was melting like ice when she listened to his voice! Gatal eh! Sebelah suami kau pun masih nak cair. (: Then then there was teachers prize giving. Fairuz said there should be one more award best audience and it should be given to me! Hahaha. 2C screamed and cheered for all the teachers even those who never teach us! Enthu enthu! Blah3. Phototaking.Lunch with halima,rani and farah. Rani left halfway. Met almas with halima. BLAHBLAHBLAH! Too lengthy, tired to typee. Muahahah! But must thank halima cause she accompany me often to wherever i went to.

Primary school! (: Met azura and hanis first around cckcc . Hanis lost her heart shape card ): Then we waled to twps meeting up almost most of our friends. Gerek babe! The guy's classmate keep teasing me for getting shorter. Its not i shorter,its that you guys are taller! I didnt took any photos with them cause most of them are camera shy! Walked,meet up with our fav teachers! I met my childhood love haha! Faizal! hahah. Not childhood love more no cinta monyet bf! Muahaha. He is super cute now and taller. Definitely. Went off around say 3.40 . Took a group pickcha. But i dont have the photo so im unable to upload it. Okay done! Photos now!(:

Teehee(:

Mentor,maths and band teacher! Iloveher!

Miss low and miss fazlin! Im taller than miss fazlin!(:

Adorable miss tang! My lit teacher!

Hot mr foo!Physics teacher

Ms michelle tan super chio! and cute. ok more to cute(:

Its our secret :D

Still got time to tie hair! Haiyo

NOT LESBIAN!

yea yea. camwhore-ing

see rani. act cute. ahahah okay lah you are naturally cute

mat rep tak menjadi.(: rani suggested this poseee.

s.e.x

Cuteest halimau mau! halima- mak!

farah d! mat saleh sesat. but i still love you

KPDT:D

Faizal the hot singer :D

sexay street dancer plus the sesat meee!

mdm nerwati. she is the reason for where i stand now, instead of the immature me back then

pri school best frenss(:

pretty sabrinaaa sameon!

random photography

dirty hopscoth. random photography

TADAAAAAAAAAA. IM DONE. BYE BYE! I NEED TO BATH ALREADY! LALALALALLA(: TAKE PEOPLE

2008-08-25T15:45:00.001+08:00

BLOGSKIN SCREW-ED UP SO IM GOING TO RECONSTRUCT IT DAMN. D:

basyirah rocks to fuckin coreee

2008-08-23T15:31:00.000+08:00

My life is currently very unstable. Problems are coming in and im trying to find ways to solve it. Give me space and time and i will turn into a better and stronger person. Im very emotional this days. I find that im too far from god. I will search through my soul now to find out who i really am. Im losing it again. Im lazy to study. Im lazy to do just anything. I want that fighting and enthu spirit again. I want to be less hot-tempered. Give me time and space. I didnt get assistant section leader post. Dissapointed i am. Maybe it just wasnt th right time for me to get th post. Setiap kegagalan atau kejadian pasti ada hikmah di sebaliknya. I now promise to make my parents , brother , granny and close aunt proud of me. Proud of my success. I will make those who have always look down at me eat back their words. Those who think they are are god damn clever. I will beat them. I will defeat them. I will win this time. I tolerated too much ego-ism. I think this is th peak of my patience. A new spirit. To change my life.

Omg :D I wrote this to let everything out. Maybe it sounds crap. But i dont mind.

yee hawwwwwwww

2008-08-10T19:11:00.000+08:00

I updated on my blog. New skin. New Face. New Caption. New title. New song. New posts.
Ok best. Im goin away for awhile. I need to mug for commontest . Honestly i havent study a single shit plus im lazy too. And to think that this is the streaming year. If i dont give myself a piece of mind and slap the shit out of me im not going to be able to achieve double science. D: I got double science for the pre-channelling. But i think i shouldnt be complacent. God knows i got into it by luck. I need to buck up in maths and chemistry. Allah give me strength and the study spirit. I hope during the fasting month i will get the berkat of studying while fasting.(: And yea mum and dad are considering to get a new car when dad gets promoted and changes to morning shift. No more weekend car ): I will miss my hyundai matrix. Dad wants to get a suzuki or honda. Im an idiot in cars.So maybe i will get to ride a new car. its just a maybe. I hope i could beg mom to buy a plasma teevee. She doesnt want to change our big fat teevee untill it spoils. She could afford a plasma why not buy one! ): Can afford to get herself nice and branded stuffs but she doesnt want. She thinks its a waste of money. Granny calls her simpleton. lol! Okay crap. I better stop blogging, shut down my laptop and go. Double science and double humanities here i come! :D

Back

2008-08-09T16:21:00.000+08:00

Hello!
Okay im updating photos only. Not all cause uploading photos is super slow please.Blog is under construction. Im pretty much bored with my blogskin.Yawns* Busy with school and all btw.99.8% unactive!I have commontestnezt week havent studied a single shit i guess i better start tommorow after tonight's chalet with relativeszxs. Byebye and take care people! Double science and double humanities please!

Its been some time

2008-08-02T21:08:00.000+08:00

Hello fellow earthlings! :D

Its been a zillion years since i last updated my blog. Well not exactly a zillion years but who cares .
Life has been pretty hectic and busy with band shedules and all. My whole weekend is packed with school activities thus im always inactive in the cyber world. Busy woman you know! Plus breaking news my computer crasheed. Effing pissed off luh can. All my photos lost already then all my old old old memories photos are all gone just like that. POOF! ): I shall update more about my life then. Prolly, this post will be long or i shall try to shorten it butzxs i have so many photos to upload and post. Nevermind i shall be hardworking to post for once!(:

So where should i start urm, maybe on my outing to Singapore Band Fiesta!

This was a long long time ago. The photos down here are so outdated! I just post instead of letting it rot in camera. I cant exactly remembered what happened but i remember meeting rani up to buy some snacks and all. Then bumped into my beloved granny! She was shopping for groceries at ntuc then she gave me $10 bucks for nothing and she gave rani money too! Rani confirm paisey already, dah jangan nak step malu ambil jek duit tuh rezeki! Hahah! Granny is forever generous and she understands teens better than anybody else in this world. After we proceeded to kranji sec but decide to sat the void deck first. Decided to makan makan first, was hungry gileeee! There was a whole bunch of bandies outside of kranji sec school gate. They like waiting to fight sia, like got gang like that. Then yadadaa later to type out every single thing that happen. I will just highlight the important points. I got 'drunk' after drinking while watch maris stella band guys dancing! Sexy sia, super hotness ,super horny! hahaha! I didnt know what was i talking after seeing them dance. Then i mixed mixed all the fizzy drinks in my stomach. Vomitted in the bus for i think it was a pretty bad mixture. Blueberry tea, 100 plus and root beer! Plus all the crackers and keropoks i ate. It was like a situation where an experiment went wrong inside my digestive system! Rani didnt dared to watch me vomit though it was utterly disgusting yo! So i shall let the pictures and some random photograpy do the talking for the other parts. The pictures are in a mess anyway.

Pickcha,

Brasses lovee!
Take a look at my girlfriend(:
1/4 of the messiness
With Debbie Ong. She damn fair lah!
2 CUTE juniors. Kailong looks as if he wants to fuck xin da.
Girlf lagik/again.
Amiliazxs Tubistzxs Sex!

The performance stage
A gold primary school band . Dont remember the name of the school
Photography!(:

I like her smile the best!(: Looks like a photoshoot for her.

Peisi! Best horny-talk parther. 1800-TALKHORNY-WITHPEISI(:

Under the void deck. We were laughing about me being her husband but wear tudung :D
In kranji sec
Photography!(:
Photography!(:
Photoooooooooooographhhhhhhhhhhhyyyyyyyyyyyy!(:

Im sorry reader but i dont have the time to post anything more needa shut this laptop. Sorry will update soon. But i need to study for common test! Urgh):

what should i say

2008-07-18T02:16:00.000+08:00

IM BUSY TO BLOG I GUESS. SO IM MIA-ING FOR AS LONG AS I WANT AND POST ANYTHING AT ANY TIME. :D

2008-07-11T21:19:00.001+08:00

Blog under construction. I want to redo everything again. Something refreshing for my boring blog.Bye readers.

2008-07-10T21:50:00.000+08:00

IM BUSY TO BLOOG ,SOON. WILL HAVE ALOT OF SCHOOL EVENTS COMING UP! AND I NEED TO CATCH UP WITH MY STUDIES. I WANT DOUBLE SCIENCE. AND AND SHAZLIN STOP LOOKING AT MY STOMACH! HAHA. LOVES FANATIC FOUR AND RANI FARAH AND HALIMA(:

Yes baby , i still love you

2008-07-09T21:22:00.000+08:00

Oh hey ! (:
BREAKING NEWS : I RAPED RANI TODAY! AND SHE RAPED ME BACK IN THE TOILET! OHH TIDAK :D RANI MIANG OK.

Okay cut the crap basyirah. Life has been pretty hectic. Having alot of things after school. My schedule is damn fucked up. So pack siaaaaa, but im still glad i enjoy the moments i have in school. Thanks to those people who never fail to make me laugh and entertain my hyperness. So yea school day was as per normal. Guitar lessons were super fun. We had to write a song. So my group choose the theme; love. Feels so weird to have our guitar teacher to read our lyrics. Sungguh paisey. Farah was writing a whole paper about love in malay. It goes smth like imbauan malam membawa seribu kenangan. YADADADADA. Mr iqbal was like "panjang sangat lah makcik ". She asked for a nice guy name from mr iqbal and all he answered was " iqbal lah " Lol! Sedap sgt lah tuh! Then then i said " i think iqbalala is nice(:! " Sounds sooooooooooo gay. I hope our group could go to the studio. Girl band ! Wooooo. I officially love atiqah,jannah,nurul and farah and and mr karl (: Teehee. I love all the malay girls in our class(: Sungguh power and kelakar. BLAHBLAHBLAH. Okay done i sound like a bitch who doesnt know how to write a perfect english post. Okay watever im too lazy to type properly. At least i dont spell like a :___________:

Exbf :D

Wedding Outing

2008-07-06T20:12:00.001+08:00

Hey (:

Its been some time since i posted smth proper in my blog. So yea. I went to my cousin's wedding tdy. He married a chinese convert lady. So the wedding ceremony seemed quite different from a normal malay wedding. It was held at Fort Canning Park. There was this building near the battle box. I didnt know that it was meant for wedding ceremonies. Lol. The setting of seemed more or like a hotel setting. It was beautiful i tell you especially the pelamin. After the akad nikah thing we had high tea. There was going to be a 10 course dinner later at night but mom was too tired and decided to go home instead. I was like wth. 10 course dinner?! And im not there to savour the food. Rani knows that i will be possessed when it comes to food. Stomach rumbles* So yea when home then mom ordered pizza. We wanted to eat smth different other than pizzahut or canadian pizza. So we tried pizza lede france. Weird name though, but the pizza was super nice. Awesome toppings and crispy bread! Wooo. Okay shall just post photos for today more of random shots lawl. Bye and take care :D

I never knew that this feeling could go this far.

tired and sick

2008-07-02T21:43:00.000+08:00

i love this photo

Soulmate,it was my love song

2008-06-30T17:05:00.001+08:00

Im not going to post anything about my sakura trip plus i havent fully edited th photos in addition im currently not in a good mood. Must be infected from nat. Im all of sudeen all moody and stuffs. Suddenly, i miss th company of someone special. Someone who loves me, and i do too in return. I miss th company of having night phone calls with someone special. Spending 3 or 5 hours just talking to him. Just wanting to make sure he still loves you if he is okay and many more. Sneaking out after school just to meet him, play the see-saw with him,getting the hugs and kisses on th cheeks. Playing the rain. Having you carrying my bag after school, carrying my trombone case, our childish fights and lastly our big and last fight. God, i miss you so badly though you were th jerkiest guy at tht time. Maybe it was me who didnt realise how much you love me. Maybe it was me who was too strict and didnt want to entertain your manjaness.Maybe it was me , my attutide , my flaws which ended our realtionship. I miss you still but too bad i have to move on. You have move on and even gotten a new girlfriend may you last with her. I was incredibly jealous but then it was stupid of me to do so. I will just forget you ): Too bad i have lose tht person a long time ago. All the kind of guys i get now are a bunch of jerks and assholes. I may appear happy and hyper always but then deep down inside its empty. I miss those times i had last time. But im glad im still blessed with the presence of my great friends. Watever now ,ignore the post and i dont need sympathy. Studies here i come.

Cultural Fiesta

2008-06-27T23:05:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone!
I just came back from an awesome fantastic superb ahh wonderful night. Kranji held its cultural fiesta night today. And yes i have bathed before i blog. Met anisah inside th bus and she accompanied to wait our princess farah. Queen of coming late. Then nurul and atiqah came to accompany me. Brother was starting to feel akward having alot of girls surrounding him! Finally farah came and we chow.Super high form th starting of th event. As usual yea, i eat legal ecstasy to stay high 24/7. Weeeeeeeeeeee.2C was isolated from the other sec two classes and we had to sit beside the speaker. Though the view of the performance isnt nice from where we were sitting at least i still have my awesomely cute and hyper class. Many of my classmates were performing thus our class seemed very small. Yet we still loud yea! I love 2c can can? Then camwhored with farah for awhile before th others came. Yadada. Everybody settled down, emcees address the guest of honor and anything lah. Then th event started. I cheered and screamed for almost every class. The sec ones folkdance was cute, streetdance and jazz was superb,flag twirling was great(: Congrats to my dearest patricia for winning th kranji idol title. Then then we had mass danceeeeeeee. Super high during mass dance. As usual 2c girls always get all excited and enthu and started to dance with semangat. Chey. Blah3. 2C had our class photo snap, th only class which that. My godneess i love 2c tooo much (: Then reached home ard 10 smth. doneeeeeeeee. enjoy th pics alright. needa rest now thrs band tmrw =.=

Pic Of Th Day

Sec One FolkDance ( 1C)
Sec One FolkDance ( 1A)

Sec One FolkDance ( 1H)
Jazz it , Great performance you guys(:

Random Photography

Girlfriends for life. I love you all.

Anisah PrettyHead (:

No comments
Flag twirling

erm us again? we look like freaking young adults in poly.

see lah th pic blur cause amirah was trying to avoid.
Halima. My third wife. ILY BABE!

Atiqahtiak, my fourth wife,laughingpartner,yellowlover

Perry Pillai, th cutest guy in class,lame partner in class who cracks lame jokes

Peisi,sezy hornist! She looks super cuteeeeeeeeeee

Farah,zul and an unknown guy(:

Debbie Ong, Prettiest bandiee,Love her alotsss

I look like a men. Najihah was super awesome on tht nite.
We were still high after the cultural fiesta. Meet my first and second wife.

Omg.He really looked cute at tht nite ):

2008-06-23T23:18:00.000+08:00

BLOGSKIN COLOUR IS MEANT TO DISGUST MYSELF AND YOU PEOPLE!

I LIKE FACIAL HAIR & CHEESE OREO CHOCOLATE MILKSHAKE.

I LIKE GOING BACK TO SCHOOL

I LIKE YOU

I LIKE MONSTERS THAT HAVE NO TEETH.

I LIKE YOU

I LIKE DAVID COOK CAUSE OF HIS HAIR

I LIKE BABOONS WITH RED ASSES AND WHEN THEY SHAKE IT

I LIKE MY GUITAR GROUP & BAND

I LIKE RANI

I LIKE FARAH

I LIKE HALIMA

I LIKE ATIQAH

I LIKE WANYI AND THANKS FOR THE PRESENTS

I LIKE THE 2c GIRLS

I LIKE THE 2g GIRLS

I LIKE BEING RANDOM. :D

i dont trust men anymore

2008-06-22T16:10:00.000+08:00

Hello readers(:

This is the second time im writing this dumb post cause my computer got stuck half way! Stoopid.Ignore th pic above.
I cant wait to go to school tmrw(: Im missing all my frieeends alot. Im going to hug halima first tmrw! Rani dont be jealous alright, halima is not my scandal but my third wife. I finished all my homework in one whole day! My ass was stuck to my study chair , i didnt want to get off it untill i finished all my homework. It isnt that difficult at all actually. Th homeworks were considered quite easy. Chey! So my outing to get my camera and new specs has been postponed to next wed or sat? Idk. My daddy told me to reconsider getting the casio. He wanted me to use canon or nikon. Lolzxzxzxz. Im going to have a girls talk with my mummy tonight. Yay! Going to expose to her everything ! Yes and i mean everything. Today i stumbled upon a picture of my little brother. He looks much cuter back then. He is not th kangaroo damn it! Too bad he is fat now. But he should slim down after national service, and become hot stuffs. He has long thick eyelashes ! urgh i want them. Okay done shall end my post here byee :D

THIS IS MY CUTE BROTHER!

Renovation

2008-06-19T19:23:00.001+08:00

Blog will be under constructioooooon! Takeee Caree People.

Basyitxxxx

2008-06-18T12:59:00.000+08:00

Ohhh jyeahhhhhh! Rani is back! I screamed on th phone when she called. Then daddy called me a crazy girl. WTH. I was expressing my love right. haha.

I havent finished up my freaking homeworks. Only done with 3 of them. Arghh. I must finish all of them by friday. As for today i shall finish all my english homeworks. And tommorow mathematics homework. Friday polish up th things that are not done. And voila! Saturday will be my family outing day. Going funan it mall to buy my cameraaaaaa. But then i still havent choose th perfect camera. Urghh. Mummy has been acting strangely these days. Being so supportive and out going. Saying that she doesnt mind me dyeing my hair, sharing with her about _____, man i really wished she would continue to be this supportive. Now thinking of the kind of specs i should choose. Hmm perhaps, thick glasses? rim-less? granny's specs ?. Idontknow. Anything lah. I am planning to change my url and my blog template again. So yea i shall end my journal here byeee.

This two are my ultimate last choices :

I dont want to talk about th things we have gone through,though its hurting me now its history.

2008-06-17T21:06:00.000+08:00

HELLO SPAMMERS HOW ARE YOU? OH THANKS FOR VISITING MY BLOG AND SAYING MY FACE DISGSTING . JEALOUS EH? THANKS EH FOR CRITISING GOD'S CREATION. HELL IS AWAITING YAH. PEACE!

love?

2008-06-15T19:04:00.000+08:00

Hello:D
So my first concert in my whole entire life is over. Wind De Brassion II Rock To Fucking Coree.Bandies,thanks for making this concert a memorable one. Man, how am i suppose to quit band with this beautiful memory. Ahhh jiwang already. So i woke up early for band & did not meet rani late(like finally). Then then,it rained halfway. Majors gave out instructions and so yea everyone started to work damnx fast. Trombone worked very fast & together tooo even without our section leader! Great job guys! Yadadada. Boarded th bus & brasses started to become high! Omg so cuteeeee, then we singsing,peixi was th funniest person ! We sang from th starting of th journey to the end ok! Camwhore in th middle. Woooo superduper fun! Ah yadadadaddadadadadad! Then 10 minutes before concert i started to panic! Thank you alan for lending your body to be beaten and pinched by me to release my tension. I was shivering until i came to th riser & saw mum & dad. Quite relieved after that. Yadadadada. Overall th concert was blast alright! Wooooooooooooooo :D
Then parents picked me & rani up. Sent girlf home. So sad she is leaving singapore for 4 days. Im freaking missing her now. I hope you were here with me. I have so many to tell you ):
K done abt band concert. Mum said she is going to buy me a new specs + camera= $$$
ahhaha(: cant wait for it. if im not wrong this friday? & fuck i havent finished my homework. matiii. k doing it on tommorow. Bye :D, rani be back soon okay ):

fanfan, im sick of it already.yes i am not understanding, but can u atleast think abt how im feeling now. argh,i shouldnt have been this serious. i should have thought it was just a flirting game. but i do appericiate th late nigh phone call esp th one before my concert. u knw how happy was i? i thought of what u said. tht gave me strength to continue my concert. ah u might be saying im too jiwang. urgh,i just want to say tht i freaking love you alright! its ur fault for making me like you. ): i missyou alot, tht explains th trillions msgs.. urgh what do u care u have friends or other girls to make u happy. watever it is i really like you plus i miss you so much ):

im back bby

2008-06-12T07:08:00.000+08:00

Hello!
Im back from band camp people. So how? Miss me or not? haha merepek.
Okay its 6 in th morning and im blogging? So i will give you guys a rough idea what band camp was like alright. Quite fun,tiring,not enough sleep,food disgusting(but i thank th welfare officers for their time to prepare food for us to eat),nothing else? It was boring lah actually. Go read amilia's blog to know what happen ya. Trombone! Brasses! We will rock th concert alright. & Good luck to dearest debbiee for her solo in dahil siayo. You can do it! I believe in you okay :D. Okay now i want to go back to sleep weeeeeeeeee. Plus i missed alot of people during camp . esp to ahemahem,tried to deny them from rani. but then i guess girlf knows me best right. Sorry ahemahem cause cannot call you last night. Fell asleep deardear,byee(:

he is my sexylove

2008-06-08T20:31:00.000+08:00

Hello readers. I have updated a fresh new look for my blog. it looks decent,like finally. So basically nothing fun happened tdy. I just had my menstrual cramp which almost killed me. :O
sorry to my guitar members tht i cannot attend tmrw's practice. Im going to be away for my band camp :D not really excitd about it though. still all nervous for my concert. at least i will have moral support by some special ppl. k lazy to post byeeee

2008-06-03T21:11:00.000+08:00

Hello fellow readers!(:

Its been ages since I last updated my blog. I have been busy with band actually. Concert is in a weeks time so yea. Life has been full of up and downs. Taking everything slowly and trying not to rush into stuffs. I have been having some weird dreams. Rani daddy appeared in my dreams. Zomg. I sort of feell guilty for rani’s crying that time. Maybe after you became friends with me you faced so much problems. Or perhaps its my fault? Lets talk about band shall we. Firstly, my holiday schedule is all filled by band. I put my heart and soul in band. But what do I get? Scoldings. I mean drum major is scolding everyone. But then why do the innocent ones get the scolding. Okay fine on band one sound. But srsly there is this one particular section you guys must really drill. If you realize they take the slowest time to keep th stuffs. They take their own sweet time and not help th percussion or even stack up th chair. Some times I feel like quiting band. As a matter of fact I feel like quitting band now. Okay I think im going to after concert or international competition. Im tired lah.Ahh whatever I don wish to elaborate on this. Oh nevermind. I lost my ezlink again. Needa save up money to buy a new one. Okay suddenly I don’t feel like blogging. Lazy and tired much. I will update more after th concert alright. Takecare Love you people muchmuch

2008-05-29T00:29:00.000+08:00

band ohh band. im just exhausted.

i dont really mind. but can you sometimes do consider my feelings. it hurting you know. im always trying to cheer you up and stuffs but you just dont. hais. nvm. im nothing right. sometimes i just i would die and everybody would be happy. not thinking of suicidal. but to die in peacex. woo):

Over

2008-05-26T18:20:00.000+08:00

Hello(:
Okay just wanted to post some pictures from yesterday outing. Was quite fun though it was late night already. Picked up from her workplace then went to macdonald drive thru & went to changi and eat. Enjoyed the sea breeze, very refreshing after some breakdowns. Had some family quality time, talked about my career path. Wanted to join nie,then father disagreed.):Going to work extra hard for eye. So that i can get a better job in th future. So took some pictures otw to pick mummy. Enjoy th pictures up thr. So tdy had maths ip coaching then had breakfast with girlf,halima& jannah. Headed off back to school for girlf streetdance. Was watching it with aishah & halima. Their group name is krunchy junior. Sounds like a cereal brand. Hahahaha(: Yadadada. Going to be busy this week. So much for june holidays. I shall end my post here. & I think i have gotten over him :D
Monday- Maths ip coaching Tuesday- Oral & Band ( 7.45 - 5.00) Wednesday-Band (9.00-5.00) Thursday-Maths Ip coaching maybe guitar practice Friday-Band(9.00-5.00) Saturday-Band(9.00-5.00)

2008-05-25T10:27:00.001+08:00

basyirah is having her breakdowns

moodswings coming up.

Why is it so difficult for you to talk to me. Havent i been nice enough. its dumb for me to like you. i wish i had never known you. i got to bear in mind that you are older than me and stuffs. but too bad im having a big crush on you. its been some days since we talked.i bet your not missing me a single shit. you have other great girl-friends dont you. better ones. those who wont irritate you. thank god thr was band to make me forget you easier. yes yes. im almost done. 60%. im running away from any form of communication. i keep slapping myself to tell myself that you will never miss me & stuffs. you dont care dont you. its okay. i will tell myself that we are just friends. mummy once said true love wont come untill your 15 or 16. all the previous bgr i have gotten to was crap. k watever. i shall so & let go my stress now. perhaps girlf knows why im like this. girlf do stay strong with your problem. lastly,mister _____ you are super cute. & i really like you. ):

ATTENTION!

2008-05-22T17:24:00.000+08:00

coffee swirl

best girlf ever
this what i call basyirah is "concentrated". 2c-ians you should know

Rani stop smelling my hair pls.

yes yes. my face very th retarded

BASYIRAH IS NOT GOING TO BLOG UNTILL AFTER THE BAND CONCERT. YES ITS LONG BUT IM JUST RUNNING AWAY FROM SOMEBODY. BYEEEEEEE.

2008-05-14T22:54:00.000+08:00

Okay had nothing to do.

DECIDED TO NOT GO PRIVATE CAUSE ITS TOO TROUBLESOME!
BUSY PREPARING FOR BAND CONCERT. SO SORRY IF I ABANDONED YOU.
RESULTS ARE GOOD ANYWAY, SO IM GOING TO ABONDON MY STUDIES, FOR AWHILE
IF YOU HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY OR ETC DO IT ON TH TAGBOARD OR MSN.

2008-05-12T17:10:00.000+08:00

Hey yo! Just gotten our papers today. Overall i passed every single subject! Yay! & i have got a couple of a's & b's! Happy can can. Lols, wanted to treat ourselves double chocolate something at mc'cafe at first with rani,farah,halima & wanyi. But then we cancelled it,i guess, after getting our horrendous literature marks. The paper i just passed.): Womt post my marks untill i get the report books. So after school waited for rani to redeem her literature marks. Man, i waited for soooooooooooo long. Then, went into the classroom & asked james to played some songs on his violin. His "second suite in f" playing wasnt that bad. I was quite impressed actually. Blah3. Once i was done waiting for rani, we went to eat cup noodles with farah at the void deck. Sorry wasnt lepaking alright. So farah kept talking about her dearest ameer. Hais tak habis habis. Weewooweewoo, walked at bridge while singing, i & farah wanted to make rani's ears bleed by our horibble singing. Teehee(: Arrived at lot one went straight to the basement toilet and blah3. So entah aper angin farah & rani decided to take the bus with me today. Then something happened, i couldnt find my freaking ezlink card. I remembered placing it inside my pocket but then it was nowhere to be found. All of us have boarded the bus. I decided to pay cash first, then went to back of the bus and rummaged my bag. But then i still couldnt find my freaking ezlink!! I thought that i left in the toilet. Was super duper panicked already, so forced rani & farah to alight the bus and went to lot 1 again. Basyirah dah giler at that time, but tried to remain calm & think of sandcastles to keep me happy. Then when we were going down the escalator, i checked my uniform pocket and guess what my ezlink was stuck in between the tissue packet! Amin! Rani & Farah were like " Wah bagos basyirah! Amalkan! Kau buang duit ezlink aku jek!" AHAHAHA. Sorry guys betul betul tak sengeja. Betul tak bedek. So we took the bus at the interchange again! & some bangla's were staring at us cause we were taking the bus for the second round. Was laughing like mad with them. Okay sorry paisey lah(: Farah declared that she wont forget today! Haha. Then we remembered the times we had last year. We were going for our first swimming lesson then me, rani & farah forget to bring extra bra & undies. So we again we kanchong went to limbang & bough 3 bra's for $10 & went to ntuc to buy disposable undies. We thought we were running late so we took any disposable undies we saw. When we at the cashier we realised it was MAN'S DISPOSABLE UNDIES. hahaha, was paiseh already & laughing hard. So we changed and took a cab to the chua chu kang swimming complex cause we thought we were super late lah. Then alhamdulilah when we arrived some people were still strolling in lah kan. Amin. So much for the kiasu us. Okay typical singaporeans. Cant wait for baking tommorow! Super excited((: Byeee

Okay, is this feeling for real? I mean like my flirting days are over. Like i said to tani & shazlini want to settle down & lead my single life. Im sick of waiting you till midnights or at eleven to talk to you. GOD, though he makes me happy but i dont want to feel this way anymore. I need to study & devote myself to band. Please let him leave. Please.

2008-05-10T18:02:00.000+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER BAYBEH!(:

Okay, sorry for th late post. Just dont feel like blogging yesterday. Okay new look for my blog! Yay! I love it alot lot lot. Made new friends these week, got closer to someone & fought with my ex-crush. Man he thinks that i still like him untill today. Omg so syiok sendiri. Rani was like eh, bersyukurlah zul dah org nak suka muka mcm kau! Hahahah. Super kekek yo. I have decided the quiz najihah and delly told me to do. Currently, brother is irritating me by struming the guitar anyhow. Urgh, sabar basyirah. Okay whatever lets skip to doing th quiz.

Anything or anyone that makes you smile:
How many must i give? Okay, i pray that i wake up everyday to see my family,especially my brother though he hurts me at times. Seeing my girlf every morning & meeting my friends at school is just enough to make me happy. Plus seeing him at least once a week.(:

Seven things to do to win my heart:
1.Be friendly & nicee
2. Always let me know me that your are thr for me
3. Entertain my hyperness & my downfalls
4. Offer me a hug
5. Buy for me something yellow or perhaps chocolate

I dont know what else?

Seven things I believe in:
1. Karma, what goes around comes around
2. God is always watching me & he loves me
3. Friends are way way much important than my boyfriend
4. I treat somebody ,the way he/she treats me. Give me bullshit, i will make sure you get double
5.My true love will come when im 15 or 16. [I dreamt of it(((:]

Seven things I'm afraid of:
1. Ghosts!
2.Horror movies and gore movies
3. Lizards, one drop on top of my tudung once!
4. My parents beatings, they dont beat me anymore though
5. My brother's singing! My ears bleed
6. Breakups. Both friendship & relationships

Seven things I do everyday:
1.Bath
2. Brush my teeth
3.Wear my clothes,my bra,my undies
4. Watch porn ! muahaha
5. Study! Not
6. Go msn & chat
7. Play catching at home with brother

Seven people selected to do this quiz:(Not choosing YuLiang's choice)
Anyone out thr.

Anything you wish for:
Look at my wishlist. My other wishes will be kept as a secret(:

Okay dellysda my darling delly belly quiz.

1) At what age do you wish to get married?
Aha! Classic question. Talked about this with rani before. I think i shall get married around 25-28 years old. With th man of my choice not my mums one! Please noooooo!

2) Who is more important to you? Friends or Boyfriend?
Friends lahhhh dey.

3) Who is the person you trust most?
Noraini Bte Mohd Mokhtar(mum) & Rani Hazrin Ilyana. & Many more :D

4) Do you think you have enough confidence?
Yes. Wish i could build more confidence when i face tht someone.

5) If you can have a dream to come true , what would it be?
i dont know? I guess leading a luxurious life with an old man. Plus he is due to die soon.

6) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Eh stupid sia the qns. Its science! Haha.

7) What is your goal for this year?
Get into double science, Have th best band concert, Marry the achi i have been eyeing for.

8) Do you believe in eternity love?
Yes. My grandad is dead by my grandmum still loves and misses him.

9) Have you broken someone's heart that she/he tried to commit sucide?
HAHAHA! YES YES! This desperadoooo . Okay he didnt want to commit suicide but wanted to rape th kranji girls. Apee daaa

10) What feeling do you love most ?
Being cared for. I love the attention of my close one. Very heart warming.

11) What are the requirements that you wish from your other half ?
Yang tua, yang kaya & yang nak mampos

12) List out 5 best friends of yours.
Wahlao. Why only five sia. I'VE GOT MORE THAT . To avoid any misunderstandings . I shall say i my best friend is mary hopkins. & i intend to marry her. feeewit. haha

13) Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Frankly, it depends who. I cherish most (:

14) Do you lyk S.H.E ????? :D
I know them. But i dont listen to their music

15) What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Sleep. HEHE.

16) Do you love Anime?!
HELL NO.

17) Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words
You mean th latest person who just tagged me? Asyraf?
I just got to know him 2 days ago.Must say he is nice, OLD, loves postbox & idk

18) What have you done to please yourself ?
Talk to myself. Self praising

19) If you could find something you lost, what would it be?
My yellow wallet! Fuck to th person who took it. You ass.

20) Do you love a guy name fyfy ?
Hello! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Instructions : Remove one question from above and add in your personal question. Make a total of 20 questions and tag 8 ppl. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged. Whoever does thee tag will hve blessings from all :D

People: Anybody

Doneeeeeeeeeeeeeee! I want to go and play my game right now. Bbye readers. I love you ppl!

Bby, its over

2008-05-06T23:42:00.001+08:00

Relinked. Updated profile. Worked on my blog. New song.Lazy to talk. Craving to sleep. Bye. :D

Im repeating history all over again

I wanted to be in love with only asses now im back to loving bapoks!):

2008-05-06T00:52:00.000+08:00

I miss photography,this is lamest photo i have taken

Camwhore with him, was still camera shy

My cat doesnt know how to pose.

Helooooooooooooooo:D
Currently blogging at 1.02 am. Crazy i am. I all fucked up about my bio&chem. I cant seem to concentrate right now. I super effing dont know why. God, please guide me in my life. I feel that i currently have no aim, no ambition , no plans for the future. I want to be a excellent student, great daughter for my parents, a good musician, and eveything else. Im lazy,this mye. I didnt study a single shit. srsly. I only study the subjects the day before. Trust me, i aint lying. I wonder how many a's will i see in my report card. Can i not be lazy and all. I want the hardworking me like last year. Yes, i do seem cherry and happy on the outside, but deep inside im actually feeling depressed. Nobody will understand why. I don really share my problems even to girlf. I would rather keep it to myself ,lock my room and do some own deep and critical thinking. Thats the real me. I just dont want to gain sympathy, well the most you can do is just listen. But now the person who is going to face,crack and bang her head to solve the problem is me. I hope allah s.w.t will give me strength to stay strong both mentally and physically. Well im still youung im like barely only 14 but i act like im a big deal. ohhh watever. Im hoping for the best and expecting the worst for mye.

Congrats to those who are damn confident and think that they are damn clever. Aku tau arh aku bukan pandai maner, tapi kau bukan eienstein or something okay. Jangan terkejut beruk end of year aku lagik bagos darik kau. aku tak show off kebolehan aku. aku malas nak compare marks aku. aku tak kesah pasal org lain nyer markah. lebih baik kau duduk diam diam tengok markah sendirik. tak yah nak show babi. bila markah kau low baru tak nak show off. mmg bio aku bgs abeh kenape jealous? terkejut aku dapat a1? pegi daa. kita tengok arh saper yng lagik pandai eh nanti. kau tunggu aku hilangkan kemalasan aku. report card aku lgk bgs okeh. sorry i dont tolerate ppl who pandang rendah dgn aku.

Girlfriend

2008-04-30T22:34:00.000+08:00

Okay this is NO random post. This post is tributed to my girlfriend, Rani Hazrin Ilyana bte abdul rahman for our 1 year 5 months on 060508 . Not lesbian okay.
Girlfriend, your the best alright. The greatest girlfriend tht i had ever had. Im just feeling down whenever you say your a loser or something. Cause your just not one. My girlfriend kuat per macam monyet. Srsly, i have enjoyed all the times i had with you. The joy,laughter & tears. Plus aku jealous arh tinguk kau ngan dier. haha.You know best on how much i have gone through. Thanks for being a great listener and entertaining my lame jokes though your kokes are lame-er,hehe. Goodluck with everything alright sayang. Eyyr i sound so lesbian.Woo, hazy will get worried about us already. Lastly, i love you girlf and f.

MYE LOVES ME

2008-04-28T22:58:00.000+08:00

This photo is for you. teehee.

Hello people. Mia-ing for as long as i want want. Hoho(: Bye bye and good luck for mye.F, i love you okay! :D

TOWNING

2008-04-26T23:53:00.000+08:00

Today is uber fun. Towning with family, craziest time with brother ,playing lame games when we were caught in the massive jam was th best. Saw my anak sedare, beautiful girl with rosy cheeks. Papa & mama was uber high too. Overall family outing was great but had to end fast cause dad had to work. Wtf. I couldn't find a perfect yellow wallet still. Delly belly suggested checking out The Wallet Shop. I guess i will this Tuesday with mom. Or perhaps drag her with me next month. Im just picky about th stuffs i buy. Been searching for th perfect wallet for 2 months after the previous went missing. Mas selamat go take. hmph. Im missing F like
!@#$%^&*&(. Im lazy to type cause i haven't bath & i stink alot.

Im jealous seeing q with h.H evens treats her better calls her prettaye. wtf
its okay i still have f with me. ♥i love f. alot.

Rahrah

2008-04-26T00:36:00.000+08:00

Lifes been great, i guess. Only that i have been slacking like hell of fuck.Not really putting in much effort. Msn is an addiction. I keep goign to th computer when im not suppose to.Somebody slap me or something. I hope i wont regret after getting the results. Im still striving for double science or at least double humans. Mye is like in 2 days time. Thank god, i have memorised my peribahasa & bucked up on my maths. Left with history to really study. Science are going great right now. Not too confident but insyallah can get A1.Have to tuck in now, going towning tommorow with my muom to buy a yellow wallet :D Plus thanks everyone for th birthday wish, presents, and hugs. I love yoouuuuuuuuuu people & f too.

I love F

2008-04-20T18:59:00.000+08:00

Hey ho people. Chey! Im lazy to blog. I
Hahah. Okay just going to say tht my blog will be under construction.I want to make an new blogskin. :D So yea. Toodles(:

Chak(:

2008-04-07T17:50:00.000+08:00

Urgh.
Boy, you know im get super jealous when i see you talking super nicely with others. Really i am. Especially when the girl is prettier than me. I feel like smashing my head whenever i think about you in school.I think about you more than my studies which is really bad. I dont know if im crushing on you because of your looks or your attitude. Seriously i don know. I really want to be a gorgeous girl when i meet you. Your good looking ,i am not.People please don tell me that im above average blah blah blah. Tell me truth , it helps when you tell me the truth about my looks. Sorry if im acting like a bitch but urgh you wont understand. . Ogay, i swear to you guys he is damn hot alright. Im not going make it so obvious im crushing on you. Lalala(:

Today again went to the playground and chatted with rani. Super gereks. We were like going picnic. I really dont fell like going home sometimes. All i do at home is sleep, study ,television, computer, phone. Pretty pathetic aint it. Okay i have to go off now. Need to mug. Exams are around the corner. Double science here i come :D

IM TH SEX♥

2008-04-04T20:51:00.000+08:00

This is week is called the slack like chebai week(:
hehe. Fuck lah i like never revise lohs. Only do homework sia. So like i have to buck up like hell next week. I cant seem to concentrate. Im like more devoted to craps such as singing, drawing, composing and writing songs. Influenced by shazlin(?)
Maybe. But i cant blame her though. Havent been so hyper these days due to the fact that im having my period. Argh! Today had maths clinic. Quite gerek because i was singing to rani the song lamunan cinta. Hehe. Not lesbian liao. Thanks to najihah, farah, and fairuz for going to me asking if i have problems. Really felt that im loved. Merepek sial basyirah. Missing that person like hell of a shit. Been trying to avoid him so that i would prevent myself from liking him. :/ Rani doesnt know why the hell im doing this. But then im like suffering because i miss him(?). Skipped mass run. It was our one and only free friday. If not we will be in the hot stuffy band room. Urgh. Then went lepaking(mcm paham) with rani at the playground. Drank rani's sweettalk treat. Thanks eh rani. Sayaaaang kau. Some guys spoiled our nice talk. I wanted to sing when the came. Went home mummy was in a good mood. Yay(: Then went to my lalala land. Dreamt of him giving me something on my birthday. Like that will happen. By the way the zul and me thing is over. Dont talk or ask about him anymore. He is dead. Well in my life, at least. Ogay , cant wait to meet nazurah tommorow. :D And missing cousins♥ like hell, hafizah ,nizam, mardiana,sara and hana. Bye♥

2008-03-31T18:46:00.000+08:00

Enjoy this song. Especially for the malays. Hayati senikata lagu ini. Sungguh bermakna dan memilukan. Dan anuar zain hot.

♥ He is hot

2008-03-31T18:22:00.001+08:00

Hello(:
I think i wont be able to use the computer as often as last time. Mum said that the bill has rose up. And if the bill is still going to rise up she is not going to pay and let me suffer. I don't want!! I wont be able to contact like my friends ahhh! Don't want! Haha lame lah basy. Been devoted to drawing these days. I just like drawing and do some passionate thinking essays. Virus passed down from shazlin. Shucks, have to fcking buck up in my studies. I feel like taking double humanities. I really hate science ya know. Favourite subject are like history. Not because i can score. It is because i love the subject and im interested to learn more about it.Yea:D

I wont forgive you until you apologise sincerely. If you are really remorseful you wont just give up apologising to me once. If you treasure me you will try your best to make me forgive you. Sorry lah ehs. Im not giving in anymore.People would think just because of this im getting so tense up. But this not the only thing you did that hurts me back then. All i do whenever you scold me is just shut my mouth. You did more stuffs last time but just apologised lightly. Like i said never push me too far. Once i flare up you will have a difficult time handling me.

Peace out! Bye bye.

Its too early to have this feelings.
But i swear i miss you alot

A Crumb Of Advice For The Hurt Ones

2008-03-30T07:19:00.000+08:00

Ohh what can you do to avoid liking or loving someone.
Nothing.
What can you do do to forget someone when he does not love you in return.
Maybe something.

To Know if you really love someone is when he makes you feel all kind of feelings. And I MEAN everything. Not only happy or make you go lalala or gugugaga.
Okay i admit it is not going to be easy to forget someone is not going to be easy.You cant possibly forget someone instantly.Especially if he is your love at first sight. You cant hide from the truth, There is no certain formula to forget someone.You have to make yourself forget him. Girls, never you cry. Never do same mistake i did. I cried for a guy. But in the end i realise that he is not worth all the tears i shed. Like someone said, it would not help you even at the slightest.
If you know you have no hope for that guy might as well give up on him. Slowly! Im emphasizing on this. Its not going to be easy but you have to. Well i know who does not want to be cared always by your side. Even i want to have one.But ask yourself. Do you want to get and love and know that he is moody and hurt because you cant forget that guy. Or do you want to forget him and not be hurt anymore,forever. If you are not meant to be with him. Then they will be someone in this world outside there better than these guy. Well Good things happen when you least expect them. Dont waste your time of thinking the same guy. Treasure and cherish the time you have. Life is too short.

Okay done, the past few days been okay. UPS AND DOWNS. Tried to cool myself when zulq called me desperate. Fuck HIM.Im so hating him now. So i dont wish to blog as my brother wants to you use the computer.

COMMONTEST TRAUMA

2008-03-17T22:14:00.000+08:00

Okay Im not gonna talk so much about commontest paper. Basically failed two papers. PATHETIC PHYSICS AND LIT. I feel like a total loser. Oh watever. Will talk more about it after the meet-the-parents session. Im so looking forward for it right.

2008-03-15T23:13:00.000+08:00

under construction.
oh my gay im in love

2008-03-12T23:25:00.000+08:00

BASYIRAH DOES NOT WISH TO BLOG FOR A FEW DAYS. SHE IS HAVING SOME NERVOUS BREAKDOWNS AND WISH TO SPENT HER TIME WITH HER FAMILY AND BROTHER. LINKING PEOPLE SOON. NEW BLOG SKIN COMING UP. BYE.

2008-03-11T22:50:00.000+08:00

I HATE MY BLOGSKIN! IT IS NOT YELLOW AND COLOURFUL!

I hate my blogskin! It Sucks i tell you. Benci!

2008-03-10T12:36:00.000+08:00

Heyyyyyyy!
Basyirah is back! LOL! Sungguh Merepek lah basyirah.
Im having some identity crisis,severe pms,and being too soft-heartened these days.
I could not be bothered by the current situations im facing. I will give the who-cares attitude.

And this for that someone, ni akunyer blog. Aku tak sebut nama kau pun. Jadi, kenapa kau frust tertonggek sangat. Asal kitaorang bebual,mesti gaduh. Kalau tak gaduh tak sah gituk!

Yesterday,
Had my family outing after !@#$%^&*())*^$@#$ months. This time with my mother's side.
Had a bumpy ride to sembawang park. Travelled by pickup and it was super-uber fun. Enjoyed the breeze and singing!(:Im sick of siting in ayah's car with the aircon, its very stuffy. Swam with my family and small cousins. Sungguh gerek can. There were policemens along the beaches, and my nenek sedare were flirting with them. They were like "Abang tak nak makan dengan kitaorang ker? Ada anak dara dekat sini. Lawa pulak tuh!" And they pulled me. What the hell! The malay policeman just laughed and smiled. In addition he is hot! Alamak, wasted opportunity.Teehee. Suffered sunburns.Peopele will think that i wore blushers.

But then it is already okay by today! Yay! And i already forgot how some of my friends look like. Shit.

2008-03-08T22:47:00.000+08:00

Hello!(:
Okay currently listening to Natasha BedingField- Soulmate.
Back Last Year During the fasting month i fell in love with this song and a guy.
I will listen to this song whenever i miss him. I can still remember the date till today ♥231007. I thought we would last for a very long time. But we didnt. We could if you reduced ur manja-ness. I really miss the times we had. The day you proposed to me was the most sweetest thing you did for me. You fetching me after school,waited for me for long hours. Went to jurong. Was drizzling. I tried to play the guitar but just couldnt do it. And thats was the day we fought too. Oh my allah, i really loved the sweet moments we had. I still loved zulq at that time. Im sorry.
I have to admit i miss the presence and company of ex-boyf.

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone

You know my love life is far more complicated than you guys think. Not many know because i keep a low profile about it. Zulq waved at me for the very first time yesterday? I really want to get over for him. Tell me how to. If You have been in the same situation advice me.Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one.

♥Tags:
Thank You People For All Tags. Keep them coming okay! Loved ! Bye!

2008-03-06T15:05:00.000+08:00

See im ugly! Happy now?

Dear Diary,
Today was super fun with crazy and biul girlfriends. We were dancing in the schools toilet. Last day of important papers mahx.Okay. Im expecting to fail in my papers. Fuck what do i care. Grandma was admitted in the hospital so i did not really had the mood to talk at times. Done.
Spammers please don disturb me can? If you are so damn daring can you pleas wirte your name too. I realise that im ugly, too outspoken and no one will like me. But I WILL NEVER EVER DISGUISE ON MY OWN TAGBOARD. SAYING I ADMIRE YOU!
You know you made me cried. Its like you are saying that i have no honour or maruah. I am super sensitive about this stuffs. You come and tag me nonsense again, im going private damn it spammer. Go get a life man!

2008-03-02T17:35:00.000+08:00

Okay Hello People.
I know i should not be blogging at this period. Commontest is tommorow.
Bloddy Mother Fuck. I dont think im prepared at all. This week was super packed.
Rehearsals, Band , Road Run. Is the school so clever to put all the events in one week. Before the fugging common test. But then, mummy told me that this life. She promised to support me all the way. So did brother. I was mugging early in the morning when adik haris made me chocolate cheesecake with milo tarik. How sweet can he be. He gave me a peck on the cheek and said that i will perform well in the tests.
Imagine you getting the moral support from ur sibling. Early in the morning, when he can be sleeping soundly not bothering if i am studying or what, he is there to make you breakfast and adviced you. Im so lucky yo(: Then, went to granny house around
11 am. Tutored my cousins and brother. My granny rocks i tell you. She was making us laugh alot by dancing to weird songs. Esp Dangdut(:

I WANT TO DO EXTREMELY WELL THIS TIME! I WANT DOUBLE SCIENCE. I WANT THEM TO PRUD OF ME!

I wont blog about sir shai farewell party. It just hurts. Will upload photos on the annual road run. And extracted photos from exboyfriend blog.

I love her lah(:

The one who brightens my day

Exboyfriend photography. Tell me it is nice.

Exboyfriend photography

GOODLUCK FOR COMMONTEST YO!

2008-02-28T21:29:00.000+08:00

Hello Im back!
Lol. Fuck I hate life okay. Today sucked big time. Not the whole of today but only during the speech day rehearsal! I HATE LGM LAH SIAL! Sorry for being too vulgar. But I cant contain it in my heart anymore. Tell you guys the only reasons i come for band is because the band members are super-uber great and also our Cute Sir Badrul. I would not even bother coming to band if not because of them.

Im beginning to hate an alumni of our band. He sucks i tell you. You damn proud arh! Think what your music skills damn great is it? Go to HELL! You changed alot you see! From a humble player to a one big fuck player. Just because you got this classes get tutor join good bands does give a damn right to boast around lah basket!You keep playing the stuffs you are damn good at!Blast in front of junior. Whats the big deal of doing it man. You want them to go "wow! so good!". Go and die lah! If i practise sure i can one. Then you went up and showed you a piece which you considered it as a EXTREMELY difficult piece. But then Debbie can play it. If she can so can i damn it. Please lohs, don act around. For Your Information,many are beginning to hate you, ALOT! Then You call us up unnecessarily. Just to tell us one comment. Bloddy ass. You act like one big fuck! Urrrghhhhhhh!

Boy,i miss you.

2008-02-24T14:29:00.000+08:00

Hello! Okay Im so FINALLY done with my blog! It is difficult to find a blogskin which totally fits your personality. I guess vintage suits me the best. Recently,Thanks To My Adikim listening to the oldies song. Im only left with linking people. I promise i will link you guys soon alright!=D

Had Secondary Two Leadership Camp on the 18th to 20th February. I wasnt exactly excited about the camp in the first place. In addition, only 28 of my classmates went. I was super sad at first loh. I dont wish to elaborate much on the camp. Morever most of you knew what happened already. 2C ILOVEYOU. Thank you for all the choas, the memories and love you guys have spread during the camp. I finally felt some sense of unity in us at that point of time. You guys are the sex ! Im going to cry my heart out when we seperate next year. I still cant bear the thought of it.

Common Test Week is coming. So i got to study now yaw. Must get to double science! Im so going to prove this girl that i could be better than her. Girl, you are so going to eat the words you spat at me. I promise you will! GRRRR!
Cheh,Cheh, Basyirah marah seh! Macam paham jek!
Till here I will end my post! Take care people(:

New PhotoShot

2008-02-17T14:47:00.001+08:00

I effing LOVE this photo

Hello(:

2008-02-17T03:53:00.000+08:00

">Hello! Okay. Im still new to the blogging world people.So my blogging skills still sucks. Teach Me peeps. Must Share the knowledge.I need to express myself dont i Firstly, life has been okay so far. No more emo-piece-of-shit me. I don think of him anymore. Thank God. It has been a nice 10 months being madly in love with you. I guees its goodbye? Yes,its goodbye. Your too perfect for me.

Secondly, I LOVE MY GIRLFRIENDS. Rani Hazrin Ilyana, thanks for always being there when i needed you most. God, your the best can! Farah Diana, your a great sister! Goodluck with that guy alright.(: You definitely know i mean. Trust me, you will see a change in mood on me when they are not around.

Thirdly, CAMP! Many of my chocolatians are not going! WTH! Basyirah sungguh bingit okay! I will make sure I will have so-so-so much-much fun there! Girlfriend, 2C girls, boys?,They are still great though. I LOVE YOU PEOPLE. =D

Ustaz Haikal From Shuqun Secondary Sungguh GEREK(:
(p.s don miss me when im away for camp yea!)

New Blog(:

2008-02-17T02:48:00.000+08:00

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